I really should be focusing on writing my Survivor blog, but I have to get some things out of me within a safe haven of space and that space is here now.
I went to see a therapist once; I was having trouble managing my own self, my job, the college classes I was taking and struggling with coping with the death of my dad. I just walked out of work one day because I felt like I couldn't take the pressure of it all anymore. I used to love that job... It paid well so I took a mental health leave of absence, dropped my classes and tried to get my mind right to go back to work...
Excuse my language, but that bitch just sat there and asked a girl who was desperate for relief from hopelessness... WHAT IF? WHAT IF? WHAT IF? "What do you want to do in your life?" - I'd like to move to New York to go to school to do something in entertainment & the creative arts. "What if you meet someone here and fall in love?" - Uh... So what if I do? If I feel like I want to go do something THAT courageous for a small town girl from Kansas... Why ask a what if question like that? She didn't ask me "Why haven't you done that yet if that's what you want to do?" There was no encouragement whatsoever to chase my dreams...
WHAT IF... What if doubt will destroy you? WHAT IF... You give up hope that you can do something that you want to do? WHAT IF... The world ends tomorrow and you're sitting there asking yourself...
I confronted Doubt and Indifference yesterday and it nearly destroyed my world, but I did it and I took them both to school to teach them a lesson about giving up hope, being doubtful and numbing yourself to the point of indifference.
If you've got nothing to live for... Why are you even here? DO YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO LIVE FOR? I do. I live for TRUTH, LOVE, WISDOM, HOPE and EQUALITY. These will bring real peace to the world and people like all of us here... Anyone reading this...We cannot let ourselves succumb to FEAR DOUBT and INDIFFERENCE. We have a job to do here on this EArth right now... We have to be strong and hopeful that things will change because...
I've been out with the masses and I know how they think... I've been watching... They are giving up hope and secluding themselves into bubbles of indifference and selfishness to save only themselves, but... If we are all going to save the world... WE HAVE TO CARE ABOUT EVERYONE... Including our selves.
You all know there is a shift happening, an awakening of souls... We are many, people like us who "get it", but there are a lot more who have no hope and just get angry and act indifferently towards the state of things.
I KNOW things are getting better, but they need to get better faster so ... It's REALLY important that all of us really keep our hearts and minds faced forward with LOVE FOR ALL no matter what they do to hurt us and others... They are only being hurtful because they have been hurt and some cannot control how their minds work. It's no one's fault if they are a bad person; they've just had terrible people turn them into monsters, who were also turned into monsters by other people... VICIOUS CYCLE that is and it is time to stop it or ...
I've seen the future... We are successful in one timeline and not in the other... We are at the tipping point now. One direction or the other... Which way will it go... I'm trying to push us into the good timeline, but I need HELP...
So... Please... Let go of all your fears, doubts, frustrations and indifference and hold on to LOVE, JOY, HOPE, LAUGHTER, FUN... CLING to the things that make you feel good and SHARE your feelings with others... Just be LOVING to everyone, no matter what they do to hurt you or anyone else. Go out into the masses and show them how much joy you have in your life and how much you love being alive... WE ARE ACTUALLY ALIVE AND DREAMING UP OUR LIVES! It's amazing!
Okay... I got that out... Now go do things to spread love and kindness and hope and all that good stuff... This is Alpha Bravo CHARLIE of the one two three and you've got work to do, Angels!
